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Thursday, August 16, 2012

Checking In

Yesterday was Sam's 6th birthday. It didn't don on me til I was talking to my grandma the other day that he would be going to school this year and that made me so sad. We should be picking out crayons and bag packs and Batman lunch boxes. 


I know I am so blessed to have Hayden in my life and he does a great job and keeping my mind busy so I'm not constantly thinking of Sam and Jack, but he can never replace his older brothers and I don't expect him to. 

Hayden is sick again, only this time he's sneezing and has a runny nose. Mr. H took him to the doctor again and it's just a cold- no infection so we'll just have to let it's run it's course. The first night was rough because he couldn't breathe through his nose and he would wake up frustrated and whiny every 30-45 minutes. He wanted to be rocked back to sleep sitting up, which meant neither one of us got sleep. Last night was a much better night since I propped him up on the Boppy. 

We went to the cemetery yesterday to clean off the boy's headstones and to do a balloon release. Hayden was exhausted but we gave him the balloons to release into the air and he perked up a bit, though he didn't want to let them go. It was sweet to watch him squint his eyes in the sunshine and watch them fly away. We sang and took a few pictures then went home for a nap. I intended to make him cupcakes but I just ran out of time but I just took them out of the oven now and are awaiting frosting. 

My sister is in the hospital. She had to have emergency surgery on Tuesday and is doing better but she's still in a lot of pain. I wish I could go spend some time with her, but she's loopy from the medication and she's clear across town, which makes it hard to visit since Hayden isn't 100% right now either. I would let my mom babysit him, but she's been with my sister almost all day every day so that's not happening. 

We went on a roadtrip earlier in the month to see my aunt who had a baby last month. The road trip was long but it was great to see family and grandparents. Hayden got to meet family and visit the town I grew up in. I also stopped by and went to see my Dad, after not talking for nearly 6 years. That deserves a post all on it's own and I'll write about it later and share photos. I just wanted to check in and let everyone know that we are still here!

Hope you all are doing well. 

~Monica

5 comments:

Kristi said...

I'm sorry to hear about your sister. I hope she's OK.

Sorry to hear that Hayden isn't feeling well . : (

Birthdays are still bittersweet, aren't they?

sapphireblue said...

Big hugs! I understand what you mean. Having a healthy baby doesn't take away the pain.

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abeer eljack said...

am sorry to hear that ur son is sick , i hope he gets better , and he is reeeeeeeeaaaaally cute :)

Miranda said...

I just stumbled upon your blog and wanted to reach out to you. I haven't been through a loss of a child, so I am so sorry for all that you and your family have been through. We struggled to get pregnant and then struggled to stay pregnant with my twins. I delivered at 28 weeks. I found that helping others through difficult NICU stays eased the pain of what all we went through. I did this through my mother's of multiples group and also an organization called Hand to Hold, based out of Austin. I feel you have a lot of hope to give others that have suffered what you have an encourage you to contact Hand to Hold to become a volunteer. Take care, Miranda